Decision made, nothing gonna change i suppose? But i hope i will have the sweetest good bye ever. Biding goodbye to you seems easy to you, but in my heart it really hurt, but i need a better life and free life. I know you gave me a very good life already, but i am selfish, i need more. i am greedy too! i know. i am sorry baby, perhaps this is the last time i am going to call you that. but i really hope you will be my bff still :) Although you kept saying you will not give me all the nonsense you have been giving me since the start of 3rd month, but i know you too well, i know all those things will come back again to me, its only a matter of time.
To you, Bernice, BABY:
I am very thankful of the life you gave me for the past 8 months, you are the greatest girlfriend i ever had, the sweetest memories in my life, best experiences got, you are the ideal girlfriend that anyone would like to have, i am sad to say, i am not good enough to have you, you belong to other people. I know you couldnt let it go, but baby, you got to wake up from all the dreams and think. think for your future, its more important than having me seriously, i know you will say its me that's more important, but i guess i need to think for my own future too. we are too young afterall. experiences gained now, all these started off too randomly. You're a good girl, i trust you to find a better guy than me. i know i suck, but you are the best. saying you are so good, yet i still let you go, its sucha foolish thing for me to do, but baby, i am sorry, i need to have a better life. Tonight will be the night that i drop my last tears for you. i hope to have a good friendship with you. A very best friend of mine. you know me well! :) I hope you will have a good life ahead. keep in contact baby! we will bound to see each other in school, i hope you to say hello to me. throw away what awkwardness, cause we were once in love. :) Dont think about how long we could go, its the best to have you once in my life, thanks! i love you! hugs! a very long ang tight hug! baby! :) always be my friend :) typing all these just make my heart ache. its because of the sweet memories you gave. but it will remain as memories! maybe 3-4 years later, we might become couple again, but i hope this wont give you false hope darling. :) i love you in my heart totally. good luck in your near future. have faith in what you do. you wont have someone to wake you up everyday, you wont have anyone to nag and shout at you everyday, wont have someone to iron your clothes for you, wont have someone to buy food for you, wont have someone to accompany you to places. but i know you can find someone to do all these, and do it much better. right sweet? i know you can. fret not, i wont be going into another r/s so soon, i need time to cool my mind down, and lead my single life happily. i am still young. you too! you can right? i know you will be blogging on things like, please dont let go of this. but my mind is set, i know i am being very cruel now, but this is the besst i could go till. i am truly sorry. i hope this wont be my greatest regret of my life. hope it will give you a better life too! hugs. You know, once my mind is set, thats it. you know. :) i love you. i think i shant say anymore, if not i really need 3 boxes of tissue. i love you baby! hugs. you are my greatest love. ("V")
